Wednesday, June 11, 2008


These were the google ads next to the email from MDA telling me I was shortlisted for an interview.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Go, Mordecai!

Tonight, after a long day of sitting in a chair, I wandered out onto a roof and climbed a metal ladder. The sky was dark, a dusty rose colour; I saw no stars as I sat dangling my legs over the small platform. It was quiet enough, but a few metres up wasn't very much away from the world I wanted to escape from. I missed my puppy. I was sad and angry and calm all at once.

I thought about how there was empty space below me. I thought about how different heights give things depth when you look from the top. Then I thought about how the sky opened up above me. I thought about the faint flashes of light that appeared overhead and wondered for a while if I was safe.

When my feet hit the ground again I looked around, and suddenly being on the same level as everyone else seemed very unremarkable.

Friday, May 23, 2008


I haven't blogged for 5 months. O_O

I graduated! My week went like this:

Monday - probably did nothing
Tuesday - got freelance editing assignment
Wednesday - graduated
Thursday - cut cut cut
Friday - sleep deprived, iz employed for 1 (one) month!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

end-of-year memes

I has dem too.


1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
[ Go to another country for a holiday without my parents. Fall in love with someone I never met. Bake. Buy stuff online. Intern for 6 months at an international business news channel. Win a video competition. Shoot a video in Hokkien. Learn French. Watch a comedy show at The1NiteStand. Go to HK Disneyland. Completing (we're about to!) a film I'm proud of for Canon DV Fest! HUAT AH. ]

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
[ No, and no. ]

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? [ Nope. ]

4. Did anyone close to you die? [ No. Heng ah. ]

5. What countries did you visit? [ Thailand! And Hong Kong, which was really great. ]

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
[ Direction and motivation. ]

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
[ August 5/6 because that's when we fell in, and December 7 because that's when you claimed me. ]

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
[ Fly-By-Night. Which is quite sad because it really is not a big thing. Was MBA this year? Then MBA, too. ]

9. What was your biggest failure? [ SIP, and so much slackerishness. ]

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
[ I fell quite sick during my internship, I wonder why. ]

11. What was the best thing you bought? [ Hats from Thailand? My boy's birthday presents. ]

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
[ Uh wtf. ]

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
[ Various various people who I don't like. ]

14. Where did most of your money go?
[ I would say... taxi fares. ]

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
[ John flying here. ]

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
[ You're way too beauuuuuuuu-tiful, girl... ]

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
i. happier or sadder? [ I'm happier. :) I'm more anxious, though. ]
ii. thinner or fatter? [ I'm quite sure I'm fatter. :( ]
iii. richer or poorer? [ I think I'm richer. I'm richer in love anyway. X) ]

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
[ Assignments maybe. Getting out of the house. ]

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? [ Slacking. Bumming. Being lazy. ]

20. How will you be spending Christmas? [ In love. ]

22. Did you fall in love in 2007? [ Absolutely. ]

23. How many one-night stands? [ Zero. ]

24. What was your favorite TV program?
[ Heroes. House. CHUCK ZOMG. Ugly Betty. ]

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
[ I don't hate anyone, but I sure have come close to strong dislike. ]

26. What was the best book you read?
[ I read Blink by Malcolm Gladwell, which I really liked, but otherwise I don't think I really read anything. Harry Potter, I guess. I still have books I haven't finished reading - America The Book; Stephen Colbert's I Am America (And So Can You); Wigfield; I am currently reading Sophie's World. ]

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
[ The Hokkien traffic song! LOLOL ]

28. What did you want and get? [ I guess, to fall in love and be loved? ]

29. What did you want and not get? [ To be more conscientious. ]

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
[ Pirates!!!!!!! ]

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
[ I turned 19, and I was in Hong Kong! I spent it with my mum and we were in Disneyland and it was magical. I kept feeling like crying. It was really really magical. ]

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
[ Doing better during SIP. ]

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? [ I don't really have one... my fashion sense is taken over by laziness a lot. ]

34. What kept you sane? [ John. ]

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? [ Hm... it's probably a comedian. Jeff Dunham? ]

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
[ I'm not very stirrable by political issues. ] My answer is always the same.

37. Who did you miss? [ I miss John constantly. Also, I miss Janice Heng, and the mafia. ]

38. Who was the best new person you met? [ John. My John. ]

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
[ Treasure what you have. Don't take anything for granted. ]

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
[ we found love, so don't fight it / life is a rollercoaster just gotta ride it ]


1) Was 2007 a good year for you?
Well, it feels gloomy and trapped and Christmas doesn't feel the same. There are many things that haven't been the same. I haven't had much energy or life in me this year. But I loved again, and that's something that has made me happier than I have been in a long, long, long, long time. So I guess, sure, it's been a good year. And I think 2008's gonna bring many more new and exciting experiences for me.

2) What was your favourite moment of the year?
I don't know. I can't pick. But I can list great moments. The fireworks in Disneyland. The audience response at Fly-By-Night, and then winning after that. Various dinners with Kenny and the Angels. MBA. Ethan's house. And just being with John and being in love.

3) What was your least favourite moment of the year?
The whole of SIP. =(

4) Where were you when 2007 began? and
5) Who were you with?
I don't know, probably doing nothing at home. My archives don't say.

6) Where will you be when 2007 ends?
Probably doing nothing at home. Doing assignments. =(

7) Who will you be with when 2007 ends?
I will be alone! But at least I have someone 10,000 miles away.

8) Did you keep your new year's resolution of 2007?
Nope. Let's review them anyway:

Number One. Get out of bed at least 2 hours before class starts. If not, you will most surely be late for school. [Uh oh, nope. I think I did it for like the first 2 days. ]

Number Two. Be early for school. If not, you will have to eat crappy food that day. No western food, no curry cutlet noodle. *weep* You have been eating crapfood this whole week. [ Nope. I tried very hard at the beginning but my penchant for sleep just took over. ]

Number Three. Make every day a productive day. If not, you will surely feel like you've been beaten over the head with a large metal canister - useless and immobile and sometimes yelled at repeatedly. [ Hahahaha no. ]

Number Four. Put everything back where you found it. If not, the floor will never see the light of day. [*looks at floor* Nope. ]

Number Five. Touch every piece of paper only once. File, or throw. Mostly throw. [ I think I have been killing rainforests this year with all the tissues I have been using. ]

Number Six. Make some art. PLEASE. Any sort, including bits of mail. Every day. Do this and you'll have a portfolio as brilliant as the sun. [ Well I guess I did this, just not every day. I am chipping away at a pathetic sort of portfolio; it isn't half as brilliant as the moon. I did send letters to Janice though! ]

Number Six (B). Mail your bits of mail. [ I did! I did! But no Christmas cards this year. ]

Number Seven. Voice exercises. And sometimes any exercise would be good too. Every day. [ Ha ha ha ha. ]

Number Eight. Read the papers. Every day. Use them to do voice exercises. [ :$ ]

Number Nine. A book a day. Read, read, read. Books are not just for decorating your bookshelf. [ Sigh. I think I have read perhaps a maximum of 5 books this year. ]

Number Ten. Assignments are TOP PRIORITY. Do them, like, now. Do them, and you will sometimes enjoy ice-cream delights. And good grades. If not, you will suffer greatly from an insane lack of sleep. [ LA LA LA LA LA. ]

9) Do you have a new year's resolution for 2007?
No. It doesn't work.

10) Did you fall in love in 2007?
Yes, I did.

11) If yes, with who?
One John Michael Burgess.

12) If yes, do they know?
Yes ^_______^

14) Did you have fun in 2007?
I... guess so. XD

15) Did you break-up with anyone in 2007?

16) Did you make any new friends in 2007?
I don't think so. Maybe acquaintances.

17) Who are your favourite new friends?
I can't answer this. I haven't made any new friends. Well. John. John is my favourite new friend. I love him.

18) What was your favourite month of 2007?
Aack, I don't know.

19) Did you travel outside Singapore in 2007?
Yes, to HK and Thailand.

20) How many different countries did you travel to in 2007?
I think two; that's all I remember.

21) Did you lose anyone close to you in 2007?

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
I've answered this.

23) What was your favourite movie that you saw in 2007?

24) What was your favourite song from 2007?
Hokkien traffic song LOLOLOL. Ok lah it's not a 2007 song. Um... I dunno! I don't listen to music any more.

25) What was your favourite record from 2007?

26) How many concerts did you see in 2007?:

27) Did you have a favourite concert in 2007?

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2007?
Well I've never been drunk. ... people might say otherwise but I've never been drunk! Only buzzed.

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2007?
No, just a little. Hahaha no lah no drugs for meee.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2007?
Mmm sex for me. Let's say... ten thousand!!!!!

31) Did you lose anything important this year?
I soaked my phone in soapy water. =( NOT ON PURPOSE. But it iz ded.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2007?
Uhh... I dunno.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2007?

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2007?
Not really.

36) How much money did you spend in 2007?
I think it could be safe to say "more than in any other year".

37) What was your proudest moment of 2007?
Uhh... I dunno. Fly-By-Night?

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2007?
I dunnooooooo.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2007 and change something, what would it be?
I would not fucking cry at my CNBC interview.

40) What are your plans for 2008?


i has it

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Monday, December 17, 2007

asian small-clawed otter

I went to Night Safari this week and this is the cutest thing in the woooooorld!!!!!!!!!1111

And you can domesticate it and it will catch fish for joo!

My dog is called otter now.

Sunday, December 02, 2007

culinary adventures!

Okay. In as few words as possible, these are the culinary adventures I have been on:

Not-Lasagne with Teo Sue Anne
* we decided we couldn't handle lasagne noodle layers, so we made curly pasta instead

It looked and smelled great and tasted okay. The pasta was a bit bland and Sueanne didn't like the sauce. But the meatballs were pretty nice I guess. Dry, but tasty. We are on our way to opening our own restaurant!


Oreo Cheesecake (attempt number 2) with Teo Sue Anne
* our first attempt resulted in a cheesecake that tasted good, but had the consistency of yoghurt

We made the special design for Kenny Yong! This is his trial birthday cake. We made a third cake (that one had the consistency of a rock, because it was frozen. In my defence, it tasted good once it melted up a bit, and it was like really rich ice-cream cake anyway, so I don't see why anyone should complain :@) that I brought to school to eat in the morning. Nothing like cheesecake in Temasek Polytechnic at 8.30am.

This is what happens when you try to scoop cheesecake out of a foil pan. After the first attempt, the slices actually managed to stay standing on their own.

Above: the remains of our Oreo journey. Below: what I did with them the first time we attempted a cheesecake.

I was going for snowman.

We ended up with a snowduck who sat in my freezer for the next week.


And here's our Fly-By-Night video in case anyone hasn't seen it.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007


This is an update to say that I am ALIVE. I am in scriptwriting class right now. Sueanne has a new harddisk and it is white and named Chanel. I can't seem to work at home. I kinda wanna live in schoool I think that's more fun and constructive. Wahaha.

I'll try to blog about our culinary adventures soon. (I've been wanting to for ages)

Sunday, September 23, 2007


I made a mushroom quiche for dinner tonight! I told my mum I want to learn to bake and cook, and so we went out to buy things to make my quiche, and then she helped me a bit with the crust, but then she had to go out and so I made the rest of it myself!

It was not delicious, but decent, I guess.

See my quiche!

Friday, September 14, 2007

maybe I hate my job

eunicew: i think ______ thinks i'm pathetic
heikalm: if __ does, i think __'s pathetic
eunicew: :O aiyah but i've been on the desk so long and i haven't really learned anything, cos i feel like i want to stay away from people ._____>
heikalm: how's that pathetic? who the hell wants to meet strangers every day
eunicew: dunno, but it's part of the job wat
eunicew: but i like, avoid it if i can >___< if they don't ask me to set up guest then i don't
heikalm: a job YOU DIDN'T WANT
eunicew: a job YOU DIDN'T WANT/ yah lah, but still have to do wat
heikalm: yeah powdering people up is a great way to get ahead
heikalm: that's like a fish feeling bad cos it cant live out of the water
eunicew: is it? lol
heikalm: is it? lol/ i mean, ya it feels bad as in it cant breathe and is dying
heikalm: but it shouldnt feel bad for not being able to breathe out of water
heikalm: do fish breathe? is that what they do?
eunicew: they..... yeah i think so. they have gillythings


me: I am a slacker with no initiative
me: in this job at least
John: No you're not. :P
John: You're bored in a position at work that gives you no room to grow beyond data entry, cold-calling, and finding nice mugs.
John: "What did you do in your last job?" "I found mugs and filled them." "Were you a barista?" "No, I worked at an international television station."
John: Does that sound kosher? No.


me: I hate my job
me: =(
me: let's go out tonight
Sueanne: welcome to life sweetheart

Wednesday, September 05, 2007


Last night I went to this rooftop bar with Janice Heng and tried to blog from my new phone, but failed. My new phone is still the sex anyway. We had 1for1 martinis - Poached Saffron & Pear Something, White Chocolate, and Lychee for each of us. Loof has the best menu + namecard in the world. We also went to WAH! Noogee for dinner, where we had mini youtiao with 5 sauces. It was a very good night out, because there was Janice and I got a little bit drunk. Now I have to go to and leave a review. HAHAHA.

Monday, September 03, 2007


if singapore is a little red dot, the earth is a little blue dot in the milky way, and the milky way just a little white dot among the billions of galaxies in space.
- ethan guo

Pale Blue Dot

Saturday, September 01, 2007




Tuesday, August 28, 2007


So after more than 1.5 years, my Graphire 4 sputtered and died, and I went out to get Wacom's new Bamboo tablet!

Kenny Yong gives it 2 weeks before it looks like crap, but the Bamboo is so chio that I will take good care of it forever. He has a point though; this is what my Graphire looks like now -

Oh well. Sexy tablets get treated better.


is having a $10 sale!

Their shirts are all so cool lah. Go here to buy. Buy for me also.


Monday, August 20, 2007

my boy up the lane

told me the most perfect story in the world. I'm so much in love. So much in love it makes me both weak and strong at the same time. He spent my weekend with me, always there, loving me, making me happy, whispering sweet everythings while I slept. There is no stronger love than this that makes it so close and so real, even though there are ten thousand miles between us. I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him............ I don't want it to ever, ever, end.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Gore Vidal


i'm in love.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Einstein is a genius

You see, wire telegraph is a kind of a very, very long cat. You pull his tail in New York and his head is meowing in Los Angeles. Do you understand this? And radio operates exactly the same way: you send signals here, they receive them there. The only difference is that there is no cat.
- Albert Einstein

Saturday, August 04, 2007


Last night I got a *little* bit tipsy. Just a *little*.

We had a great barbeque; there was plenty of food (also plenty of food left over meaning we had to tapao home) - sambal stingray, chicken wings, sambal sotong, ham kebabs, beef kababs, corn, potato, otah, tomatoes-on-a-stick... it was a high-class barbeque, not those type class chalet then cannot start fire then the food damn pathetic must ask mother cook beehoon type of barbeque.

And then we had cake, and there was a swing, and I almost spilled my not-so-secret (not necessarily in that order).

Monday, July 09, 2007

Beware of odors from unfamiliar sources.

^^ that is what my igoogle fortune cookie says.


Had a pretty decent weekend, as usual. Weekends are generally great fun now, and completely devoid of SIP journal-writing activity. I have given up hope of ever completing them; I might as well relegate myself to FAIL.

Tried to sit up straight all throughout work today - I would say I succeeded, and that I felt different - better - when I got home. But then put me in close quarters with my bed and any posture-improving from the morning goes to naught because I'm back to belly-flopping on the bed and tapping on the laptop again.

It's way past my bedtime, I'm going to go to sleep.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

my body's crashing

Called in sick today. I wish I knew why I was so constantly sleepy, and also why there seems to be so few hours in a day.

But aside from that there's finally someone who makes me very, very happy.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

There's a boy

who lives thousands of miles away, thinks I'm beautiful, and tells the most perfect stories.

He makes me giggle and makes my heart bleed, and his words feel like there should be a soundtrack playing behind them.

I feel like a princess.

Saturday, June 30, 2007


This morning Sueanne and I were sleepily awake at 7, and we lazed around in bed until 8+ or something, then went to have breakfast at Macs. After that, we watched The Holiday, which made me cry a fair bit and wish that there guys like that existed in Singapore. Then it was off shopping! The Frouster let me wear her pretty shoes because she didn't want to carry them.

It was a Good Day for Singapore retail sales as thousands scrambled to buy everything they needed and anything else on sale, in the last throes of 5% GSTness. In other words, FUCKING CROWDS DAMMIT OMG.

The bounty: 8 pairs of earrings, 2 pairs of shorts, 3 t-shirts, Za foundation and powder

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

from janice from hanyin

1. Where is your cell phone? -- bag
2. Relationship? -- idk
3. Your hair? -- ungreat
4. Work? -- sigh
5. Your brother? -- paints
6. Your favorite thing? -- laughter
7. Your dream last night? -- buffy
8. Your favorite drink? -- tea
9. Your dream car? -- convertible
10. The room you're in? -- bedroom
11. Your shoes? -- dirty
12. Your fears? -- non-achievement
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? -- award-winning
14. Who did you hang out with this weekend? -- melissaleong
15. What you're not good at? -- fashion
16. Muffin? -- nothx
17. One of your wish list items? -- house
18. Where you grew up? -- geylang
19. The last thing you did? --
20. What are you wearing? -- cmmshirt
21. What aren’t you wearing? -- makeup
22. Your pet? -- unallowed
23. Your computer? -- undead
24. Your life? -- ________
26. Missing? -- confidence
27. What are you thinking about right now? -- nothing
28. Your car? -- taxi
29. Your kitchen? -- outside
30. Your summer? -- year-long
31. Your favorite colour? -- sky
32. When is the last time you laughed? -- today
33. Last time you cried? -- recently
34. School? -- missed ):
35. Love? -- quizas

Edit: apparently you can only type one word
doh, of course


I was thinking maybe I'd name my children after stars, or something pretty like that, but I the only nice starnames I found were Maia and Mira.

Monday, June 11, 2007

my fortune cookie says...

A once in a lifetime adventure awaits you in the South Pacific islands.


Sunday, June 10, 2007

1000th post!

And what a way to celebrate! I had a blast of a weekend.

Went out with MelissaLeong for shopping and cheer-uppery but turned out just to be walking and gigglefits which was perfectly awesome and fun. Partied the night away and [insert scandal here] and slept over at her house. Woke up, talked more, lounged around, sat on a swing in the rain, and thought of a certain boy a lot of the time. It was so, so great and I completely retract my statement on Friday that "omg so loser i have nowhere to goooooooooooooooooooooo".

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

be careful with my heart

it will bleed if it's broken

Sunday, June 03, 2007

i need love

i feel pretty awful
and i might have a badass headache coming soon
i think i am pmsing majorly
which isn't anything good
i feel like i need a good cry
this is the sort of dread i dreaded when i was in vjc
i barely lasted two months
how do i suck it up for six?

Thursday, May 31, 2007

today's word of the day: disconsolate

how hopelessly appropriate

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

i miss school

A long time ago, I left my cranky old JVC lying around in the Mac Lab and thought I had lost it forever. Yesterday, someone called and said they had it, and to go to school today to get it back.

The moment I stepped into the labs I though "ahh YES this smells like SCHOOL oh MAN I miss it so MUCH". I got my camera back, and then went traipsing around BizPark, and decided to have my beloved Curry Cutlet Noodle.

Then I went to the studios, and saw everyone. Well, not all at once, but soon enough there was Mr Lim, Mr Pok, Mr Yongyong, Mrs Nah, Ms Chuah, Mr Guo and Ms Chee. And Monkman and Sarahong and Fred. I stayed till almost 6 to help film something because there were visitors coming and they were showing off our radio facilities and Mr Pok needed footage of what we do for radio.

Anyway at one point out of nowhere Mrs Nah asked me "EUNICE ARE YOU DATING" and I'm "uh... I'm sorry?" and she's "are you dating??" and I say "... no". And she said that I should find meself a boy, that she found me endearing. Hahahahaha.

And then later I tell her to find me a Spanish boy and she says if I found one do you think I would even tell you. I think she has a crush on me and doesn't want me to love another.



It was hilarious and fun and oh god I could be myself again. I love it when I'm with the people who know that I am not-just-slightly insane. I think at work I am so stifled.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007


Today I spent more than an hour transcribing a bloody interview. Bloody bloody transcript, bloody bloody interview. I KEEL YOU, I say to the transcript. I KEEL YOU. Interviews more than ten minutes should never be allowed anywhere unless they are funny. Funny interviews I will care for and water. Otherwise, I KEEL YOU, I say, I KEEL YOU.