The past three days have been extremely unproductive, and time is passing too quickly for its own good. Today I pretended to do math for 2 hours, falling asleep for about 45 minutes during that time, and completing a grand total of 3 co-ordinate geometry problems. I tell you, I am so darn careless with my work that I can copy "24" to be "34", and the number was on the previous line. I was so stuck with that question that I decided to fall asleep, and when I woke up and realised my mistake, I was still stuck because I made more mistakes down the line. Blahdy hell.

Moving on, my Chinese teacher should give tuition one-on-one. I think she knows what she's talking about? It's just that she cannot handle a class, and therefore her teaching becomes ineffective. For me, I know I'm beyond hope, but I'll try to maybe do a bit of Chinese every day lah. Maybe can hope a little bit lah, horh. I realise though, that I seriously cannot produce a sentence directly in Chinese, because I don't think in Chinese. I was noticing my thoughts today, and really, they were all in English.

Oh yuck. *deletes* I just wrote half a paragraph about how I need to write something decent and it came out crap. No irony intended.

The Cadenza (my school's band concert) CD is playing, and it sounds fab. I love my school's band and Chinese Orchestra. Pity I didn't go to the CO concert.

Nowadays, I really cannot wait for Os to be over, because I have this idea that after Os I can do so many things I want to do, and I'll have a huge and packed and fun schedule, and next year I'll go to poly, and I imagine myself doing really well, and starting wonderfully afresh, out of all this rubbish and all... And I know that "by right" I shouldn't be thinking that way, because you know, happiness is all about choices and all that, and if we want to be happy now we can because we can simply choose to do just that, but oh I just feel that after Os everything will be so much better...

So I'll need to mug hard now to avoid having to worry endlessly during the period waiting for the results, so that I can relax and have fun properly.

Yes.

Bah, I need to get myself a Vocabulary.