3 guitars
3 costumes
3 hairstyles
I AM A STAR!!! *yell scream jump about*
So. It's over, then. All this manic guitar stuff that's been stressing everyone out.
Two days ago I thought today would be freedom. Instead, it's been a sad empty longing. My sec 1s are the sweetest. *hugs* And the whole ensemble, they did so well! Wulei, Emily, my trio partners... Emmeline, who did a fantastic solo last night... Val, Clara, Serene, Yvonne, Charlene, my fellow rockers... I'm actually really going to miss guitar practices.
It all came together in the end, didn't it? It always comes together, eventually, however wrong everything may seem. A few glitches here and there, but we handled it so professionally I thought it was way cool. It's been a great 2 nights performing, and as always I wish there was another night. And another, and another... Always.
Always. It's always like this. It's all the stress, all the chaos, just before a performance, and then when it actually happens, you finally know why you did all this for. It was more so for FISH! than for the concert these 2 nights, but the feeling was still there. Always.
Always, always like this. My parents and brother will come to my performance on the second night, and after the performance, they are just sitting, waiting, waiting for me to finish so they can send me home. It's like there's nothing else, they're just there to drive me back. They give neither positive nor negative feedback and I don't like to ask. Until perhaps, after we've got home, they say something, in this case, "I wasn't impressed by the rock band." Oh, feel the positivity! *rolls eyes* What I want is praise, encouragement, love. The first thing they say is negative, or else they don't say anything at all. My brother, too. Why do people have to always notice the bad things and talk about them? It's always like that. Always.
Which is why I love my friends so, so much.
Too bad the 2 people I wanted to be there weren't, though. It would've been nice.
Saturday, July 17, 2004
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