sooner or later, everything goes my way

But sometimes when that happens, it's not fair. It really isn't fair.

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K, so GoF yesterday. Spoilers afoot! (Whited lah)

I thought it was too rushed. :( They just tried to put a bit a bit of everything, and things that we really want to see, we didn't see enough of/at all. I'm sure everyone felt cheated by the Quidditch World Cup.

Dumbledore annoyed Janice and Meltan; I felt he was too, like, weak and shouty also.. aiyah I dunno lah. Not exactly the Dumbledore I had in mind, but I didn't really care because I was having fun spotting the fun moments and matching the book to the film.

It was funny lah, and it made me cry too. I think if I'd been the only one watching, I would have seriously sobbed and bawled at the graveyard scene. Crucio sucks. I teared at the spider. Yeah. I'm a wuss.

And it was choppy and stuff lah. I dunno. I liked PoA better. I loved PoA. Oh well. It was okay. I'd watch it again if it was free. But I wasn't overjoyed. A bit disappointing lah. But it was okay. :)

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We had photography tutorial today and after we finished what we had to do, we went to see Mr T, because MMPrin really sucks. After we saw Mr T, MMPrin still sucked, and Mr Y was mad at us, with reason. I felt terrible, because argh, argh, never mind.

School kinda sucks now.

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Edit:

I think ever since I came to poly I've become more bitchy, more gossipy, more irritable, ruder, more arrogant, and vainer. Sigh. In RGS, everyone was impossibly nice. Seriously. Or maybe it was just my class, because 413 had the nicest people in the world. Everyone liked everyone else, and I was never one to bitch/gossip about other people. Like, really never. If anything, I only listened, I never passed it on. I never knew what the gossip was about anyway.

I still don't know what the gossip is about, and now I feel cut off from the rest of 413, even though I meet up with them, and I find out what's going on (at least vaguely) through the blogs/LJs... Maybe I never really was all that close to 413 at all. I feel like all the while, I'd just been wanting to be in with the cool kids.

And shit damn, people think I'm the cool kid, which I'm not. The cool kids hang at places with names like The Tea Party or something, and they watch French films, and they go to film festivals, and they do multiple S papers. I did something really uncool yesterday - I made Janice and Meltan and Izzy wait really long for me to get to Orchard so that we could eat at Royal Copenhagan (which was good, by the way, just really expensive). And I didn't even apologise for it. I felt really bad. I'm really sorry, guys. ._. That was really uncool. I don't deserve fans like you. Seriously. I don't know why you think I'm cool, because you guys are, and me - I just am pretentious and try really hard.

School isn't looking up at all, despite the "slackness" of the timetable. I think it's partly to do with the film, and at the rate I'm going we'll have to enter it in next year's competition. -_- I'll try hard, guys, I will. I know how excited you were about it. I'm just worn out lazy. Just really lazy. And tired. And I feel like giving up but I can't. Because this is all I've worked for. I've wanted to come here, to CMM, to make films, to do all these things I really love and I fucking well can't give up now. It's not even been a year. I gave up at the O levels, but I cannot cannot give up now. It would be very stupid of me.

That doesn't stop me from feeling like it, though.